For LGBTQI community in the Caucasus, isolation is a way of life
For many LGBTQI youth in the South Caucasus, home is not a heaven.
Their parents, their families—the ring of relations that is supposed to provide comfort and safety in the traditional societies of Armenia, Azerbaijan and Georgia—are often unable or unwilling to support them.
That leaves them largely isolated, unprotected and with little recourse to fight against a rising tide of hate crimes and discrimination. Danger takes many forms for the LGBTQI community in the South Caucasus, from verbal slights on public transportation and beatings at home to work-place abuse and illegal incarceration.
Members of the LGBTQI community are punished for being themselves in all three countries.
Azerbaijan has been called the worst place for the LGBTQI community in Europe. The police have illegally detained and, in some cases, tortured gay and transgender individuals.
In Armenia, potential discrimination and the risk of hate crimes forces people to hide their sexual orientation, and be isolated from social life. It ranks slightly above Azerbaijan in terms of laws and rights guaranteed for the LGBTQI community, but it provides no legal guarantees against discrimination. Homophobic hate speech is common in media and attacks against members of the LGBTQI community are common.
While Georgia has passed some laws that provide a veneer of protection for the LGBTQI community, homophobia is rampant in Georgia. The lack of political will to provide safeguards for the LGBTQI community results in police violence, hate crimes and a general sense of insecurity for members of the community. Discrimination is also prevalent. In particular, activists note LGBTQI individuals are at risk to lose jobs and do not have access to state-funded shelters or medical treatment in most cases.
The lack of protection robs the LGBTQI community of their voices across the region.
With few safe places to occupy, the LGBTQI communities in Armenia, Azerbaijan and Georgia find themselves limited to online forums and closed Facebook groups.
This project aims to give them a public platform to speak about their lives and their hopes.
Their dreams are much like those of everyone else: in all three countries, they dream—much like everyone else—of being accepted by their families and their communities, and having the freedom to create fulfilling lives.
For instance Nora, a trained nurse, hopes to one day work in her own field, instead of being forced to earn money as a sex worker. Umid simply wants to feel at peace with his own body. And Ana dreams of the day she can hold her girlfriend’s hand in public.
These are their stories, moments lived in the private spaces where they can find peace and feel at home.
GEORGIA
Georgia has passed anti-discrimination laws that should provide safey and security to the LGBTQI community. But the reality is much different. Hate speech is frequent and LGBTQI events have been threatened by ultra-right groups and religious organizations. The 2018 Ombudsman’s report noted that “Homophobic and transphobic attitudes are still strong in the public, due to which LGBT+ people still suffer from oppression, discrimination and often become victims of violence.”
Ani
Ani, 18, was around 14 when she realized she was attracted to other girls.
“I used to paint pictures of women, not men. It felt so nice to paint each part or detail of their body with a brush. I didn’t get it then, but later I realized that I felt closer to women. It made me rethink who I was and what I actually wanted. That’s when I decided to try a relationship with both sexes.”
She recalls telling a few friends about her orientation, but they didn’t understand her and she lost those friendships.
Lika
Lika, 21, was 13 when she first told her parents that she was a lesbian. They were furious and refused to accept her. “They estranged me from my friends, took my phone away, and started to control me at school. I fell into a terrible depression. I wouldn't leave my room or eat anything. My dad would beat me every time he got drunk.”
Over the course of several years she was subjected to everything from beatings and physical abuse to an exorcism. “All I was thinking about was death...I tried to commit suicide. I took some pills but my sister found out and I was rushed to the hospital.”
She was 18 when she left her home in a village and sought help in Tbilisi. Activists at the Equality Movement NGO took her in and supported her, eventually helping her leave the country.
“Germany was a spontaneous decision. Any country would be fine but we thought it would be easier to go there. The main goal was not to live in Georgia anymore. The rest didn’t matter.”
Today, Lika lives in Germany, where she sought refuge after running away from home. She is a student and does not plan to return to Georgia.
Mariam
Mariam, 17, had her first crush on a girl three years ago. About a year later, she ran into the girl again and they have been dating ever since. Mariam tried to come out to her mother, but her mom refused to believe she was serious, arguing that she would outgrow her attraction to women. Mariam has stopped trying to talk to her mom about it, and has not tried to come out to anyone else. “I feel this cold, offensive gaze from people every single day. It may also be about my style and taste. I’m used to the fact that I’m in danger in my country because of my orientation. That’s why I never express my feelings in public. I have never tried kissing my girlfriend in the street. I refuse to allow myself to do it.”
Salome
Salome, 21, was 11 when she understood she was attracted to girls. Her sexual orientation has caused her years of conflict with her family, friends and even strangers. Once, she tried to leave home but her family followed her and convinced her to return. “They promised me they would treat me better. As soon as I returned, they took me to church. I was losing myself, harming my body, staying awake and worrying. I couldn't speak to anyone.”
Nino
Nino, 30, realized she was attracted to women when she was already an adult. She says at the time, she didn’t have any information, or even the vocabulary, to understand her feelings.
She was 20 and had already been married. “I was very young when I got married. That’s when I met a girl. I could tell she liked me, and I felt the same. I decided to give this relationship a try. It turned out to be one of the most special times of my life. It was the first time I had an orgasm. This is how I realized what the ‘problem’ was. I was 20 at that time.”
Nino came out to her mother but her mother couldn’t accept it, so the two simply do not discuss it now. Nino has two children and worries how homophobia could affect them. “ I always feel tense with the fear that they may get hurt just because I like women and my partner is female. I feel this huge responsibility! It’s the only reason why I don’t say I’m a lesbian.”
AZERBAIJAN
Old traditions prevail in most of Azerbaijani society. Wide-spread hatred towards the LGBTQI community also stems from ignorance and confusion. As a largely patriarchal society with strictly segregated male and female roles, it challenges any attitude that does not adhere to that. As a result, the LGBTQI community is forced to hide or face harsh criticism as their families often struggle to come to terms with their sexuality, especially in rural areas. Coming out often results in violence, abuse and rejection. These attitudes cause many people to live double lives, and some feel deeply ashamed about their identity.
Umid
Umid, 21, identifies as transgender. He was raised as a girl, according to traditional gender roles, surrounded by his siblings in a very traditional and conservative family. From childhood, Umid felt uncomfortable in his own skin and found it hard to live as a girl.
Unable to share his experiences with his family, Umid found his solace at Salaam Cinema, an art group in capital Baku. Here, within the walls of an old building, surrounded by art-loving, open-minded and creative people, Umid feels at home.
Nigar
Nigar, 32, identifies as a lesbian. Nigar first realized she was gay in the 9th grade. Until recently Nigar was in a long term relationship with her partner. They met on a dating website.
Unfortunately, after seven years the relationship ended and Nigar is single again.
Like many others in Azerbaijan’s LGBTQI community, Nigar hopes to immigrate one day.
Aida
Aida, 21, identifies as lesbian. She was 12 when she first felt attracted to a school friend, and she remembers being scared and confused by her feelings. Her discomfort with her own feelings was magnified by her upbringing in a traditional Azerbaijani family.
Aida started to explore her feelings while she was studying at university. She spent a lot of time researching LGBTQI issues and, in 2019, she joined the Y-peer organization in Baku. The organization focuses on sexual and reproductive health and rights for young people and Aida has become an active member.
Armenia
The LGBTQI community is highly stigmatized in Armenia. The threat of discrimination and violence forces people to stay in the closet, isolated from social life.
In real life, many members of the LGBTQ community struggle every day for their right to the pursuit of happiness. Those who break their silence and openly live their lives as LGBTQI individuals show real courage by publicly speaking about the issues they face everyday in an effort to force people to recognize their shared human experience.
Nora
20, is bigender. She was forced to leave home when she was 18 due to domestic violence and verbal abuse. She went to medical school and dreams of becoming a nurse, but discrimination against the LGBTQI community makes that impossible.
Immediately after leaving home, Nora worked as a waitress but she was soon fired because, as the owner said, “clients do not want a homosexual waiter.” Eventually she turned to sex work. She has found happiness with her partner, Feliks, and a group of friends who accept her as she is.
Mo
Mo, 35, is a queer asexual person, who left their parent’s house two years ago.In a traditional society where young people, especially those assigned female at birth, are expected to live with their parents, moving out was a very brave move. Mo never officially came out to their parents but openly speaks on social platforms about their same sex attractions and queer experiences. Mo’s brother and parents avoid discussions about Mo’s diverse identities although Mo is ready to answer their questions openly.
Elvira
Elvira, 29, is a woman living in Vanadzor who does not identify with any one orientation. “I have identified with hetero, bisexual, pansexual and queer over time, but now I don’t want to be identified.”
Elvira is lucky as she has a very close family, although it’s difficult to live in Armenia without following traditional gender roles, especially in the regions outside of the capital, where the atmosphere of discrimination, violence, stereotypes are more prevelant.
Margo
Margo, 23, identifies as agender. They are a drag queen who cannot act openly in their everyday life. Margo is still in the closet, hiding a very important aspect of their identity from relatives. If anyone they know sees and recognizes them, everyone will shame them. Margo’s mother and brother know about their emotional attraction to men, but they do not know about their gender identity and are not supportive.
Mkho
Mkho, 24, is a gay man whose sexuality has been revealed to his family twice without his consent. The first time he was 16. His brother read his posts on social media and beat him up, forbidding him from going out. It happened again when he was 23, when his sister overheard him discussing his sexuality and told other members of the family. His family still denies that he is gay; they pretend that it’s not true or he is being influenced by his friends.
Luna
Luna, 23, is a lesbian. Her family kicked her out when she was 17, following years of tense relations with her mother and other relatives over her sexual orientation. At one point, her mother even forced her to visit a psychologist.
The doctor told her family that Luna should be “treated” and she was subjected to psychological pressure for two months as the psychologist tried to “cure” her. Finally, the psychologist refused to work with her.
Luna and her mother did not speak to each other for six years but, thanks to efforts by her brother, the two recently started to communicate again. Her brother made the first step, even though the family had forbidden him from contacting his sister.
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